I listened too closely
Your eyes were saying you adore me
And I gladly drowned in them
Love was coming out of your lips
So I couldn’t help but linger
Your hands spoke of forever
I held on tight
So tightly I held on
And closed my eyes
I listened too closely
I shattered when, finally,
I looked and saw the words
From your heart
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
goodbye
it gets old...
all the waiting and the worrying
all the secret pain and the fake smiles
that say "i'm ok" when actually,
"i'm not --
dying inside, in fact."
don't say i gave up
too early, without a second glance
i did my share of "i'll stays"
a ton of "i understands"
the tears i haven't shed
all this time,can fill up a dam
i gave you all the chance
i gave you all the time
to figure yourself out
i know i may be sorry
to leave you when i know
damn well that only you
can make me feel the way
i do... i know i may be sorry
i really do
but then should i really
just look straight ahead
of this one-way street?
should i just keep on walking
the same way i have always been --
towards you...always
without question
i wonder: if i just gather
all the strength i still have
left, i may be in for something
better, something real
and i know -- when i don't meet
you in the eye --
this is the right thing to do
because I have so much love
to give, and sadly --
it shouldn't be for you
at least, i had
learned to live and love
through you i've known
the greatest laughs and cries
i've had experienced
a great true love
only it has ended
no matter how i longed
for it to last
i will miss you
that's certain
the tears i held back
may finally find release
sure, i will never forget
you, never regret the bliss
but don't you worry
don't despair for me
because if i learned something
big in this affair,
that is: to love truly
you have to feel pain
to love truly doesn't mean
to cling, to love truly
is just to love and
love without fear of it's end
it gets old...
all the waiting and the worrying
all the secret pain and the fake smiles
that say "i'm ok" when actually,
"i'm not --
dying inside, in fact."
don't say i gave up
too early, without a second glance
i did my share of "i'll stays"
a ton of "i understands"
the tears i haven't shed
all this time,can fill up a dam
i gave you all the chance
i gave you all the time
to figure yourself out
i know i may be sorry
to leave you when i know
damn well that only you
can make me feel the way
i do... i know i may be sorry
i really do
but then should i really
just look straight ahead
of this one-way street?
should i just keep on walking
the same way i have always been --
towards you...always
without question
i wonder: if i just gather
all the strength i still have
left, i may be in for something
better, something real
and i know -- when i don't meet
you in the eye --
this is the right thing to do
because I have so much love
to give, and sadly --
it shouldn't be for you
at least, i had
learned to live and love
through you i've known
the greatest laughs and cries
i've had experienced
a great true love
only it has ended
no matter how i longed
for it to last
i will miss you
that's certain
the tears i held back
may finally find release
sure, i will never forget
you, never regret the bliss
but don't you worry
don't despair for me
because if i learned something
big in this affair,
that is: to love truly
you have to feel pain
to love truly doesn't mean
to cling, to love truly
is just to love and
love without fear of it's end
Thursday, February 15, 2007
You are the one who touched my heart
Your eyes inspired me to become what I was not
Your arms secured my dwindling faith
My soul is weak when I’m within your easy reach
Beside you I know I’m safe
Just by the tender look in your eyes my worries fade
Always I long for your embrace
To comfort me when I’m in pain
I wonder how come it feels so good to be near you
I don’t understand why you
I sometimes think the world is cruel
To put you so near where I can’t reach you
If this is love that I feel
If this is love, what am I to do with this
Why does it have to be this way
Why does it have to be you my best friend
How do stories like mine end
Will the feeling find its way
Will it reach yours, perhaps --
Will you find a place for it in your heart
What is funny after all is to know
That the farthest place in the world is not the Pole
It is right here beside you
Right here where I feel I belong
Your eyes inspired me to become what I was not
Your arms secured my dwindling faith
My soul is weak when I’m within your easy reach
Beside you I know I’m safe
Just by the tender look in your eyes my worries fade
Always I long for your embrace
To comfort me when I’m in pain
I wonder how come it feels so good to be near you
I don’t understand why you
I sometimes think the world is cruel
To put you so near where I can’t reach you
If this is love that I feel
If this is love, what am I to do with this
Why does it have to be this way
Why does it have to be you my best friend
How do stories like mine end
Will the feeling find its way
Will it reach yours, perhaps --
Will you find a place for it in your heart
What is funny after all is to know
That the farthest place in the world is not the Pole
It is right here beside you
Right here where I feel I belong
Monday, February 12, 2007
when you're dreaming with a broken heart...
...the waking up is the hardest part
i've been hanging on for a while now. a long while now. i got used to it already. the joy and sorrow that come with it, i embrace them with all my heart and soul. i have learned to accept that it will not get better. if i want it so bad, i have to stay. otherwise, if i go, he will not beg me to stay. since i want this dream to go on, i have to learn not to question, not to seek for anything more that what it has to offer. if i want to linger in this dream, i should keep my eyes closed and stay put...
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was he really here?
Is he standing in my room?
the questions that are forever swirling in my mind must be kept a secret. must learn not to blurt them out. this "thing" that we have strictly excludes questions. that's fine by me. anyway, i'm happy when he's around. i feel secure when we're together. yes, he makes me feel special in his own little ways and i appreciate these displays. he says he tries to show me how much he loves me the best way he knows how. that's fine. maybe he's just not so good at expressing himself or maybe he really loved me that little based on what he's showing me. the thing is at least he loves me (whatever that kind of love is). but, during all those moments, did i really hear him right?is he really the kind of man i am thinking he is?
No he's not, 'cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone...
i thought it's alright. i thought i can stay dreaming. turned out i can't. i could have stayed if only i felt reassured. if only i am sure that the already complicated situation will not get anymore complicated. because i'm already on the edge. i've, in fact, exceeded my limits. one little push will make my fall. and it's a steep cliff..if i fall, there's no more getting back up. and i fell..sadly, and what hurts the most, is the fact that he caused my fall. he -- without realizing it -- pushed me. i tried to hang on. tried my best to hold on to his hand. despite my hanging on to him, he let go and i can't do anything anymore because he's the one who's holding my hand.
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
i ran to my friends for advice. it's so difficult for me because this is the first time i have deeply fallen in love. i need to make sure there will be no regrets. so i asked my good friends, should i stop now and not turn back or should i again swallow my pride and talk to him for the last time? one of them said that i should follow my heart and fight for what i feel. she said i should go and talk to him if that will clear up things. this way there will be no what ifs. she said i should directly ask him about what's going on and just be prepared forthe worst answer. she said at least this way i will find closure. i'll know for once where i really stand. but then, another friend said that sometimes closure should come from the person seeking it. sometimes i need to just read between the lines and spare myself from experiencing so much pain that may just be the ending if i still talk to him, so my friend said. maybe, yes, i should shut up now once and for all.i need to rest anyway. this has been a very tiring experience. but i told my friend, it's not easy to let go..after all..
He takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
it feels so good to be with him.everything seemed so easy.it's fun at first.but then i fell in love and that changed everything.suddenly, i can't stay close anymore without getting hurt.every little thing he said mattered.everything meant something to me.i can't listen to his stories anymore without risking getting hurt.but we were so good together as friends, at least others thought so.i really want to keep the friendship but the funny feeling won't go away.the needle pricked no matter how hard i tried to ignore it.it's there making me human...
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
i had put an end to it.regrets?too early to tell.one thing's for sure though.the love remains.thus, it still hurts.i have decided,it's going to be more painful for both him and me if we will put our lives on hold, me waiting for him and him, i don't know...him, wanting me to stay close, just like that...
No he can't, 'cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
...the waking up is the hardest part
i've been hanging on for a while now. a long while now. i got used to it already. the joy and sorrow that come with it, i embrace them with all my heart and soul. i have learned to accept that it will not get better. if i want it so bad, i have to stay. otherwise, if i go, he will not beg me to stay. since i want this dream to go on, i have to learn not to question, not to seek for anything more that what it has to offer. if i want to linger in this dream, i should keep my eyes closed and stay put...
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for the moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was he really here?
Is he standing in my room?
the questions that are forever swirling in my mind must be kept a secret. must learn not to blurt them out. this "thing" that we have strictly excludes questions. that's fine by me. anyway, i'm happy when he's around. i feel secure when we're together. yes, he makes me feel special in his own little ways and i appreciate these displays. he says he tries to show me how much he loves me the best way he knows how. that's fine. maybe he's just not so good at expressing himself or maybe he really loved me that little based on what he's showing me. the thing is at least he loves me (whatever that kind of love is). but, during all those moments, did i really hear him right?is he really the kind of man i am thinking he is?
No he's not, 'cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone...
i thought it's alright. i thought i can stay dreaming. turned out i can't. i could have stayed if only i felt reassured. if only i am sure that the already complicated situation will not get anymore complicated. because i'm already on the edge. i've, in fact, exceeded my limits. one little push will make my fall. and it's a steep cliff..if i fall, there's no more getting back up. and i fell..sadly, and what hurts the most, is the fact that he caused my fall. he -- without realizing it -- pushed me. i tried to hang on. tried my best to hold on to his hand. despite my hanging on to him, he let go and i can't do anything anymore because he's the one who's holding my hand.
When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
i ran to my friends for advice. it's so difficult for me because this is the first time i have deeply fallen in love. i need to make sure there will be no regrets. so i asked my good friends, should i stop now and not turn back or should i again swallow my pride and talk to him for the last time? one of them said that i should follow my heart and fight for what i feel. she said i should go and talk to him if that will clear up things. this way there will be no what ifs. she said i should directly ask him about what's going on and just be prepared forthe worst answer. she said at least this way i will find closure. i'll know for once where i really stand. but then, another friend said that sometimes closure should come from the person seeking it. sometimes i need to just read between the lines and spare myself from experiencing so much pain that may just be the ending if i still talk to him, so my friend said. maybe, yes, i should shut up now once and for all.i need to rest anyway. this has been a very tiring experience. but i told my friend, it's not easy to let go..after all..
He takes you in with your crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
it feels so good to be with him.everything seemed so easy.it's fun at first.but then i fell in love and that changed everything.suddenly, i can't stay close anymore without getting hurt.every little thing he said mattered.everything meant something to me.i can't listen to his stories anymore without risking getting hurt.but we were so good together as friends, at least others thought so.i really want to keep the friendship but the funny feeling won't go away.the needle pricked no matter how hard i tried to ignore it.it's there making me human...
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
i had put an end to it.regrets?too early to tell.one thing's for sure though.the love remains.thus, it still hurts.i have decided,it's going to be more painful for both him and me if we will put our lives on hold, me waiting for him and him, i don't know...him, wanting me to stay close, just like that...
No he can't, 'cause he's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Everything feels so right when I’m with you
Fooling around
Looking at each other’s eyes
Silence, comfortable silence
Tears flowing freely
Perfect…almost
Sitting beside each other
Sleeping on each other’s shoulders
My cheeks resting near your heart
Your face on my hair
Sweet…only if
Walking without holding hands
Secured despite that
Touching your face while you’re sleeping
Listening to the gentle hum of your breath
Peace…complete
Being close
Your breath fanning my hair
Your hands on my knees
Soft lips gently brushing my cheeks
Love… seems like
I look at you and all I see
Is my guardian angel
So out of reach
Fooling around
Looking at each other’s eyes
Silence, comfortable silence
Tears flowing freely
Perfect…almost
Sitting beside each other
Sleeping on each other’s shoulders
My cheeks resting near your heart
Your face on my hair
Sweet…only if
Walking without holding hands
Secured despite that
Touching your face while you’re sleeping
Listening to the gentle hum of your breath
Peace…complete
Being close
Your breath fanning my hair
Your hands on my knees
Soft lips gently brushing my cheeks
Love… seems like
I look at you and all I see
Is my guardian angel
So out of reach
There’s something I wanna tell you
But a lot of things hold me back
Like the way we laugh together
Like when we’re silent but in touch
I wonder if telling you will change all that
I wonder if telling you will tear us completely apart
We’re so comfortable with each other
So comfortable yet I know what we have is fragile
I know one little slip and it’ll shatter
Because that’s how it goes when two people are uncertain
It seems to me that you’re fine with all this
Sadly though, I’m starting to feel left out
I don’t know the picture you’re painting anymore
I don’t think I see it the way you do, the way I did before
It all changed because of that little kiss
Suddenly everything became complicated
I can’t contain my confusion any longer
I feel like any moment I’ll burst and be blown away
It scares me to think that you may not know me after all
You may think that, that kiss was just a spontaneous act
No feelings attached
No feelings attached
If only you knew that’s my way of saying I love you
But a lot of things hold me back
Like the way we laugh together
Like when we’re silent but in touch
I wonder if telling you will change all that
I wonder if telling you will tear us completely apart
We’re so comfortable with each other
So comfortable yet I know what we have is fragile
I know one little slip and it’ll shatter
Because that’s how it goes when two people are uncertain
It seems to me that you’re fine with all this
Sadly though, I’m starting to feel left out
I don’t know the picture you’re painting anymore
I don’t think I see it the way you do, the way I did before
It all changed because of that little kiss
Suddenly everything became complicated
I can’t contain my confusion any longer
I feel like any moment I’ll burst and be blown away
It scares me to think that you may not know me after all
You may think that, that kiss was just a spontaneous act
No feelings attached
No feelings attached
If only you knew that’s my way of saying I love you
Sunday, December 24, 2006
somebody help me please
and so i cried. i cried because i seem to have no control of the situation anymore. it seems like i'm in control of my own feelings, at least, but the truth is i'm slowy dying inside. i'm hurting but i can't seem to get out. everything is happening inside of me that i can't battle it. i can't fight back because come to think of it, how can i fight myself? how can i deprive myself of the thing that makes me so much happier when i'm happy and cheers me up when i'm down eventhough it hurts so much. everyone deserves to be happy it's just that i find mine this way. i sound crazy, i know. but then, this life is full of crazy crap that sanity is actually nothing but an empty word anymore, don't you think?
i want to wake up sometimes and face reality but then it's so much easier to move and go on when you are in a dream. it's so much easier to just float, to just glide, and to not acknowledge the truth. The truth that will definitely shatter me to pieces and will make me wary of anything that will threaten to arouse this great feeling of extreme happiness ever again for fear of experiencing yet again the equally painful fall i know i will have to face sooner or later.
i'm lost. lost in this seemingly unending quest for definition. for clarity. i know it will take just one small step to resolve this situation. one little question. but, i am afraid. i'm afraid of letting go; of finally letting go. i can't take the risk. i can't. but i'm sure time will come that i will because i still long for that pure bliss that everyone, EVERYONE, is looking for...
and so i cried. i cried because i seem to have no control of the situation anymore. it seems like i'm in control of my own feelings, at least, but the truth is i'm slowy dying inside. i'm hurting but i can't seem to get out. everything is happening inside of me that i can't battle it. i can't fight back because come to think of it, how can i fight myself? how can i deprive myself of the thing that makes me so much happier when i'm happy and cheers me up when i'm down eventhough it hurts so much. everyone deserves to be happy it's just that i find mine this way. i sound crazy, i know. but then, this life is full of crazy crap that sanity is actually nothing but an empty word anymore, don't you think?
i want to wake up sometimes and face reality but then it's so much easier to move and go on when you are in a dream. it's so much easier to just float, to just glide, and to not acknowledge the truth. The truth that will definitely shatter me to pieces and will make me wary of anything that will threaten to arouse this great feeling of extreme happiness ever again for fear of experiencing yet again the equally painful fall i know i will have to face sooner or later.
i'm lost. lost in this seemingly unending quest for definition. for clarity. i know it will take just one small step to resolve this situation. one little question. but, i am afraid. i'm afraid of letting go; of finally letting go. i can't take the risk. i can't. but i'm sure time will come that i will because i still long for that pure bliss that everyone, EVERYONE, is looking for...
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